love Vs company

a post i saw from TAN MING KEE ... which i toltally agree with it ~

sometimes, love becomes a habit.
and one can't tell they're still in love or just doing a usual habit.

does merely keeping contact makes u two still a couple?
how do u define a couple?
is it that u merely need or company during your free time thats y u got yourself a partner?
are partners to be abandoned when u are busy?
will u ever tell ppl u're busy with your partner?
thousands of linked questions flooded my mind, but who is there to answer it for me?

when love becomes a routine, lots things became an unwritten rule.

u forgot
that calling each other is to talk bout your day,
and not just to say good night and fulfill your duty,
and to avoid the consequences of not calling.

u forgot
to hang out together is to get to know more of each other,
spend time with each other,
and not just to hang out and meet up to fulfill your responsibility.

u forgot
spending time together on occasions is to appreciate the occasion together,
and not just to let ppl know that 'of coz i did spend it with her'

u forgot
knowing special dates of your relationship is to celebrate the day together,
and not just to be able to answer when u're asked.

u forgot
eating together is to sit down nicely to look at each other,
to know what each other likes,
and not just to fill your stomach.

u forgot
holding hands is to let each other know u're still there ,
and not just to hold because every other couple does that.

u forgot
a hug can reassure a lot of things,
so don't hug just to hug.

"love " ~ being cupid is such a hard job

"The Mask"

something i put on since ytr ~ haha ~ .................................... anyway .... was wondering all these while ... how do u define love .... like do u really know that if u love that particular someone or like that someone ? sometimes love tend to fade off slowly and it became a habit .... a part of ur life ~ like ... loving her is already a habit so u love her cuz u are used to loving her and not love her because u love her .and never notice that love has already gone .....and why is it so hard to let go when there is a break ???


isit really because the particular person is still loving the other half OR .... he /she is already used to his company ~ and does it mean that u love someone if u enjoy their company alot ?? and sometimes i wonder ~ whether u want to be with that that person so u love them or ... u
love them thats why u be with them ......

and how much u love the person is how much u will hate em after on ???


headache question ... yea ... tell me about it ~ .....

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~I SHALL SO STOP BEING SO BITCHY AFTER THIS ~

there's some arguement between me and a fren .... where i think u are what u say and where u hang out .........or study ~~ enviroment does affect ppl's thinking and midset not to mention behavior ~ ......... i doesnt mean all ..( SERIOUSLY i dont mean all.. for thoose who know wat i am talking about ... i'm not being offensive)... but most of them .... which i sarcasticly think that a particular area's ppl which i am not so fond of ... where she think toltally differently.and being so protective over them which i find it kinda contra with wat she said well maybe people change especially women .. they are sooo not predictable (well maybe not all the time )....and i respect it tho....i guess thoose ppl have their "market" and ... difinately not attractive at all to me .
well for somebody's information ..... u get dump isnt because the other half has change .... its because .. ppl improved ~~ and u stay foot on where u are and i guess u are probably very happy with it as i toltally does respect ur side of culture ...... probably she find it hard to communicate with u anymore cuz .. ur mentality or social are ..... is not till her/his level .. ... well so ... find ya self someone ur level i guess would be suitable enuff for u ~

NO WONDER when "the mask " was out in the movie its so HOT

i don understand why am i always NOT appreciated ~ say wat's best for others ... giving turthfully advise ~~ but ppl always get it the wrong way ~ ........... well i've learnt my lesson once ~ that people doesnt take truthfull advice ~ they like lies ..... beautifulll lies ... so watever ... back to the old me ~~ "WOW ..... prettynya HOW DID U DO THAT omg "~~ if this is wat everyone likes ~ i say cuz i care ~ i risk being seen as a bitch to say that and this is wat i get ~ so ... i guess ~~ being in a mask would be the best thing to live happily ever after in the community ~ i guess POPular people ... and sociable ~ people are thoose who has be biggest mask collection in thier pocket ~ i guess i shud learn from them ~ ....


~good bye .. mr.wise guy trying to be nice ~ welcome the new .... mr. sociable ...."THE MASK "


talking about mask ~~ my blog soooooo need a change ~~ need to give it a nicer skin tho ~~ need some time to do it ......... ~~~~ BZ BZ BZ BZ .......... waiting for all my money to come to me ..... come to DADDY !!!! woahaAHAHAhaha i sooooo gonna shop till i drop when i get'em ~


for somebody's information ~~ the rite way to love is not being obsess with that particular someone ...... so much for being wise ... lol ~ like i know how to love ~~ -______- lll well saying is always easier ~ anyway love sucks ...... i guess everyone knows .... recently alot of peeps is getting in love ... seeing little little LOVE sparkles... between frenz ... and sadly alot of ppl is in depression from breaking up ~~ its so sweet to see them in love but felt .... empty at the same time tho ..... u_u .... when will i meet "u" .... or i shud say ... when can i get "u" ....

peep say if u love someone u wanna see em happy & u'll be happy~ hell yeah..my middle finger on this ....how many people can do it .... saying is definately easy ..the cRUEl turth is ....when u see em happy WITHOUT u ....u feel SUCKy ~~ ... SERIOUSly ... LOL ~ ~~ well ~~ atleast this is wat i seen from some fren ~ -_- lll ~~

i guess thats all .... its already morning anyway ~ ...... ~

qoute for the day ~

sometimes ..... problems will be solved if u leave them alone ...... insisting to solve problems at the wrong time will just make things worst ~ take a break and come back for it when everything has cool down ~

not so me .....

fucking losta things happened .. happening ~ and going to happen ........ i'm so fucking tired of life .. so sick and tired of ppl fucking around telling this and that assuming this and that .like they know everything "duh ~~~ u don ok ? continue being ur good little boy under the bitch skirt" fucking not like i care anymore.....crazily stressed at work ...hate websites !! ....... not going so well in college too~ FUCK ~~ wats going on in my life ? ~~~i need to really get myself back on track ~recently learnt that .......... when u open ur palm and let something go then only u will be able to grab sumthing else in return ~~ holding to something tight doesnt lead u anywhere ......it will just bring u to depression and obsession ~ ~



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so much for being emo, for thoose who care ... thanks for caring for thoose who doesnt ... fuck off ... :) ~ doesnt need anything from u tho......... not like i'll give a damn about u reading it or not ~ -_-

well its a freaking new year ~ i wan a freaking better life ~

new job .... lotsa money ~ true frenz ~

todo list ...... or i should say wish list for this year 2008

+ a cool job
+ hope my "secret project " works well
+ freaking know more chicks ( need more opurtunity ... "duh")
+ external flash for my cam
+ lens for my cam
+ a cool car ~~~





jeev burfday party tmr ~~ promised to do him some new media stuff for his party but was so freaking bz recently ~ so i did a simple animation instead ~~ "jeev is hot " ~ lol ~ hmmm hope u don mind tho ~ u guys are the best !!! post it on later if i got time -_-


did some 3d modeling recently ........ but havent do the lighting and texturing ...

touched

long time never blog already ..........hmm lotsa things happended and .. fuck was fucking bz ... everyday meeting meeting meeting meeting ............ wat a hectic sem .. and its just the fucking begining .... anyway ...... i get to work on a KEWL project for my internship class which i was very excited with ... but ...its so called P&C .... so kenot blog about it -_-

well ... i had my burfday last two week ago ........ was kinda disapointed 1 .. cuz everyone ... including my DARLINGS .... forgot ... the date ..... they tot 1 day later .... -_- .... then the weekend after that my DARLINGS ask me out for a dinner ..... with akmal ... buka puasa dinner thinggy .. and we reach 1u at about .... 9 ... before that i was asking soon yee ... wats the plan and where are we eating ... he told me ... chicken rice shop ... i was like .. @.@ u sure ah ???? cuz ... our mr soon yee ere .... doesnt sounds so convincing that he'll go for chicken rice shop ... ( rich brat) .... and ... yea i sorta go along with it ... and ............ bla bla bla ... akmal went there first with caroline ( the cute gurl ) .... and ..... me and jeev and soon yee meet them at the so called chicken rice shop which is actually chilis .... afterthat only i know they set me up .... lol IT WAS a burfday dinner .... awwwwwwww how sweet ... just for me .... we had our NICENICE time and dinner ... and after we sorta like chilling there after the food .. then i heard ..... pplS singing burfday song ..... and when i was going to tell them ... wow .. someone burfday also wo ... then ..... fucking the staff at chilis stood beside me holding a ..... cake (i think its called a cake ) ........ with a candle on it .... and then i know the song was for me ... DAMN ... i was soooo SUPPRISE lo ....I TOLTALLY FELL for THAT 1 ....... hahahahha well ... thanks guys ... and gurl ... for everything ... LOVE u all ... will post photo when i get it from darling soon yee ..... soooo touching loooo


talking about TOUCHED ..... fuck ... akmal got his ipod touch LOR ! ....... wah damn cool ... the function ...shit ........ i am not into these ipod ... psp and shit stuff .. but shit .. i still think its cool ....... wakkakaka but i still wouldnt buy 1 ......

pipit 1st anniversary

wow.... i went to pipit 1st aniversary ytr ~ was sooo much fun meeting up the pipit-ers ~ seeing god louis ... yayawoooo jphree black fryday and all ..................so here's some photo i took at the event ~ enjoy........

some wonderfull tees

pipit issues

bibi chun and jphree

urban creature doing demo

cute couple .. the yayawoooS....

my fav for the day

someone said my blog is updateless ... LOL

wah it has been such a freaking loOOng day ytr ~ ~ well i did a design for pipit
( a designer forum )'s anniverserry :) ......

here it is :) oriental style ~ ahahah

after that i went to ...... putra jaya ~ PLANNING to take some photo's of the firework competition ~ but WTF ?! i reach there like .... 5 minits before the thing started ~ i was freaking jam ~ and ... FUCKER i dunno which direction will the fireworks be ~ and after the first firework was seen in the sky only i know it was freaking far away ~ I Ran like fucking MILES towards the place ~ and i gave up ~ half way cuz its lke fucking faraway ~ and i fucking kenot get some clear shots of the fireworks due to the angle and the position was not GOOD ! FUCK IT ... i'll be there again ~ HOPE i can get another good shoots of it ~

but i did manage to get some shots of putra jaya ~ :)

LOVE the reflection contrast

i'm back ~

phew ~ finally i have some free time to blog ... my blog has been update-less for months ~ due to assignments and project ~ well i finally get all my projects done .. and as well as some freelance jobs ~~ :) well alot of things happend ....the happy thing is .... omg ... i cant belive i got high marks for my online media ... ..hahahah was so happy ~~ ~~ well credits for my teammates as well ~ happy working with u guys ~ but the site still have some little bugs running ere and there i will fix it soon ~


the sad thing is !!! EUGENE and MANMENG is leaving toa T.T ~~~~ omg ... i knew they will leave sooner or later (duh~ who wanna stay teaching forever ~ not like the sallary is damn high ) but i never knew it was before i graduate !! haih ..... my fav lecture eugene ~~ the one that was always there for me ... for my last minute work( i know its not good ... i'm trying hard to not ledi its more like ..... doing till last minit and not last minit onli do ) and yet never show me the bitchy face ... (lol not like someone else ) ~ and my scripting problem that is so freaking scary cuz i always wanted to do something diff ~~ i got a hint form him last week when he say someone is leaving but i tot it was manmeng ~at that time i was like .... omg .... the most talented ppl in script is leaving .....and i told myself ... nvm nvm ~ still got eugene ~ WTF ~ at tues ~ they announce together both of them is leaving so freaking sad lo ~ now no one solve my scripts d ~~ no one let me hantar work lewat ledi ~~ :( ~~~~~~ SAD !!! well ~~ i didnt get a chance to really thank him cuz .... :( my classmate did a vedio for him and .. wth ~ i tak sempat to do the vedio for my part ( I WAS SO DISAPPOINTED ) .... well i know he wont be reading this but .... THANK YOU for everything ~ well here's some photo of my class and two of the legendary lecturers in TOA mm dept ... the god of scripts and .. the famous kind hearted lecturer
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look at the T shirt ~ its stated " i love man meng eugene "




this is the first time i see manmeng smile so happy ~

i guess i'll wish u guys luck on ur journey ~ :)

freaking BORED

its friday !!! FIANLLY !!! i've been waiting for this day to come since forever .. i've been siting infront of my comp for almost whole week sleepless doing my homework ... i can feel my comp also wanna tell me "get a life dude " .... lolz .... gosh ~~ dunno why today eveyrone like missing in action :( ... gosh ~ wanna find someone to go out with me also so hard ZZZZZZzzzz fuck !! BORED !!!!! i dowan to rot at home !!!

my mom tot i was dead

GOSH ...... i woke up just now at 4 am .... and i realise i have been fainted for nearly ... 12 hours !! lol ~~~ i have been staying up sleepless for god knows how many days ... gosh ~ life is busy ~ motion graphic ... online media ~ MM production .... i love design ... but .... i need more time man ... i reach home from school today at 5 ... and i plan to go for some exercise ( basketball ) .. but then i told myself to go lie down on the bed for half hours resting .. LOL !! i didnt wake up ~ luckily i didnt go play basketball ... i think i will be dead by now ~ LOLZ .... gosh i'm bored ~~!! everyone is offline .... i guess .... hwk time ... again ~ GO go GO !!!!!! no art work to show today ~ :/

vector

i'm kinda into vector recently ~~ ... well was doing some vector icon for a fren ~ cuz i promised her so ...... ( she forced me ) .... and so ... here it is .... i fit it into a t shirt instead ~ cuz i find it cute ... well and here's some character design of my next project as well ~~~ soon yee and akmal ~ thanks for being my model ~ lol u guys look cute ~ :)

joey~ in my t-shirt design " beauty of simplicity "
pop art style

lol ~ cute akmal and soon yee in my project character design

photography vs photoshop ~

all these while i hold on to my believe when taking photos where good photography comes from pure photography without very much photoshopping ~ ..... well ~ i went to my art teacher studio today and ... dunno how the hell we chat about photography and then ... lolz ~ i dunno how the hell we get into this topic where i say ..... " if photoshop the photos ... then photography is meaningless ledi ....... then every camera can come out with nice photo .. and i don have to buy a dslr for nice photos " .... my art teacher knock my head ~ and lecture me for like 20 mins about .... how potography develop ~ how ppl last time do editing using flim and bla bla bla .... and ... tell me photography is about the composition and the story u wan to tell and not about photoshop or not (but ofcuz .... limit urself when photoshopping ... don too kao kao la )~ geesh ~~ .... lol ~ so i went home ... and... lolz ~ photoshop some photo i tool ( finally i don feel guilt to photoshop my photo's ... haha wanted to do it sicne forever ) .....

control

akmal's blue sandals

a kiddo at buddha fest

4th piece digital painting !!

was browsing thru flickr 1 random night and saw this photo ~~~~ from yew chin ~~ it was perfectly shot ~ so i did a digital painting on it ~ gosh ~~ i've been doing more illustration work more then ... multimedia work ~~ LOL ~~ feel free to comment ~~

the original photo ~~ nice photo ey ?


photoshop +painter ...... took me two nights to get this done

The road not taken

stresssed !!!!!! i need to come out with the action script for the f***king online media website which i really kenot find any info of it online ~~ GRRRR !!!! and then i was offered a chance to partner with a stylist to open a studio which he already found all the sponsors ~ he is just waiting my answer then the project will starts ~~ gosh ~ and he will pay all the rental and stuffs i just need to do his F**king website .... and take the photograph of the models ~ ~~ i doubt it if i really wanna go into the "fashion field " ..... but ofcuz i wanna earn money (who dont ) but ... i will be much more happier if i am a freaking cool desginer and earn a living with my design ~~ ...... and .. i dunno if i got time to cope with my studies or not ....... :"( ... and this might be a chance for me (who knows wat it will brings me to ? ) .... i am stressed !!!

anyway ~~ this is a t-shirt design i did ..... lolz ~ i think a t-shirt looks nice if its plain ... so .....

sounds not convincing ~~ hummm i wonder why ~~ (lame)

FREE at last !!!! for 1 night

finally i pass up my motion graphic today .... felt damn relax after passing up .... haha right after coming back from coll i started sleeping until 12 am only i woke up ... never felt how its like to sleep lidat since ...... last holiday ~ wakakakka ~ then i started ston-ing infront of my comp and felt like drawing again so i did another piece of digital paitning of kym ~ XP took me quite some time to finish it ....somehow one of my fren just broke up with her bf .... she seems so depressed from her nick name .. it makes me think of the time i broke up with my ex 1 year back .. i was like her .....it was like the end of the world for me .. it took me quite some time to heal my wound ......well she just need sometime and she'll realise that love is just a small part of life .... there's alot of nicer thing other than love ... :) like frenz .... cheerish the frenz u have......i'm greatfull that i have a bunch of cool frenz now ~ thanks guys ~

screenshots from FIRST my motiongraphic ever





photos i found randomly online



my version of kym....... photoshop+painter

TIRING !!

gosh ~ motion graphic due date is at wed .... i just came back from the coll lab at 12.am ~~~~ its freaking tiring man..i reach home ~ had my dinner on 1am and started to continue doing my motion graphic ... and had some random chat with akmal and i told him i need some cool music to keep me awake ...and so .... he sent me this great song ........well .... if i just broke up and i hate my gf .... i will tell this to my frenz ~~~ lolz !!!

The Vandals-my girlfriend's dead

Digital painting

its 5.00am and i have been doing motion graphic for the whole day ytr (sleepless)~ felt abit streessed so .... i browse thru my photo's and then got an idea of doing digital painting....so i pick a gal from my photos(fern ) and start painting..and then i kinda get "higher and higher " and den i started to do some photo editing with lights and colors.... well the outcome is ...... great ( i think)

digital painting-photoshop

(fern)well i am not a illustration student nor a animator i guess i've tried hard

akmal the arrogant

fern the sweet (she just seems to be in my photos so frequently )

i am FAT?!?!? wth ?

gosh ~~ a fren told me past few days .... that i look fater ledi .... well i ignore it cuz i think she havent seen me for ages ... and ..... today ..... somone told me that also ! gosh ~~ am i that fat ?
i've stop jogging and working out for 3 weeks already ~ due to ........................ hwk ~ ( its not an excuse okay ) well and i did find back my previous photos and compare it with the photo now ...
haha i don think i look fater also.

few months back















last few days

( in fact i think i look slim-er) er..........................don i ?hmmmm maybe its the hair... well anyway so i went to you tube to search for some workout tutorials ~~ and this is what i found ~

Art is about self expressing and not competing

well something hit me on the head when i was scolded "Art is about self expressing and not competing" by a close fren while chatting ..... well i sat there for a while thinking about it ... well i have to admit ... i am so obses with the whole "fame " thing .. everything i do now is just to achieve 1 goal .... thats fame .. Well my fren told me that it is so unhealthy for me .... well .. i was kinda speechless when he said that ...

i admit wat he said was completely right about me .. but to think of that .. i'm actually placed to compete in other word force ...all these while what i've been doing is to try to prove ppl wrong about wat they think about me... and i am not a piece of shit .. well my mind is so messy about that sentence that he hit me with now .... lets not talk about that ..

haha... its been so freaking long since the first post huh ? lol ~ was kinda busy at work ( i mean college ) has been working on some project lately and beating deadlines .....

well this abit of what i'm doing ....
















screen shoots of my interactive business card~

and .... i'm kinda into photography recently and i got myself a new flickr account http://www.flickr.com/photos/baby_kiasu ..... this is some photo inside ~ feel free to drop by and give some comments :)